Today was one of those days where I should've just stayed in bed. Literally, should have just kept the covers over me and kept sleeping. Because as soon as I got up, it turned to shit.
Okay, maybe not right as I got up, but pretty soon after, J and I got into a tiff about whether or not he put the flea stuff on Walter and the cats. Since they've been pheasant hunting lately, and I swear I've had some bug bites on my leg, he promised last night that he would do it in the morning. Alas, he didn't. And he didn't tell me so until he was right about to head out the door, running late as usual. Of course I said in my typical whiny voice "But you said you would...." and he was exasperated and unwillingly took a few extra minutes to do the deed. Well I was upset with his attitude, even though I was trying really hard not to be irritated, that small thing kind of ruined the rest of my day.
I spent the drive to work on the phone with J as he was on his way to work telling him how I couldn't rid of this feeling that the rest of the day was just going to SUCK because of this morning. And I was right! But I'm sure it was because I attracted every single bit of negative energy today. I got to work, and realized I forgot lunch. Damn it! I was so not doing a good job of letting things go at this point. I tried to make myself some tea and slowly sift through my emails, just like the past few days where it was actually kind of relaxing. Then I run into an e-mail that was supposed to be dealt with yesterday while I was gone, and no one had bothered to fix the issue. So I proceed to try and fix that issue, and by the time I'm done, a lovely elderly woman wants to take all her money out of her annuity that she never should have purchased in the first place. My banker isn't licensed to deal with her, so of course I have to do it. I wasted a good 45 minutes listening to the 105 reasons why she had to take the money out, all of which I really didn't care about because LAST time she came to see I had already heard it all. All of it. After that was all said and done, I had another elderly lady (same one that wasted my time last week) come to my desk (with no appointment of course) because she couldn't remember what we did with her CD last week. Lady, we just left it in there to renew! We really didn't do anything because she didn't want to and I honestly did not want to confuse her anymore by putting her into something new. Unfortunately, I failed because she's still as confused as ever. I've tried to tell her she needs to bring her daughter in so that someone else knows what's going on with her money, and so that her daughter could help her. It's just so sad how many of my customers don't want to involve their children when they really need to. Or at least involve someone else so we're not having the same conversation every week.
Please don't think that I hate little old ladies, I really truly enjoy their company, but it is extremely tiresome to repeat the same thing over and over again. So anyway, after that, J calls to tell me his grandma was having chest pains and that it's probably nothing to worry about, but she's going to the hospital anyway. This in itself was not fun news to hear, and I was really worried about her. I felt terrible for thinking this next thought....but I had been doing such a good job avoiding J's family this week that I was seriously dreading having to talk to someone in J's family because of what happened to his grandma. It was seriously giving me anxiety. And then of course, right on cue, Jenn texts me with "Hey you! Feels like I haven't talked to you in forever. How are you?" (Oh and PS, she texted the same thing to me last night, but I ignored her.) I waited a couple hours and said "Hey, doing great just busy busy. Hope you have a good weekend" Nothing too nice, nothing too bitchy. And of course she texts back with "Do u have plans tonight?" Eek! I am so not good at this avoiding people thing. I consulted Sola and J and they both told me to tell her I was busy, so I just said "Yeah I'm sorry." I was waiting her to text back asking me what time I would be done with whatever I was doing, and I got so lucky because all I got was "Okay, let me know when you have a night available so we can get together." Whew! And that was the end of that, thank goodness.
Looking back at what I just wrote, she really doesn't sound bitchy. But I guess, the best way to explain why I had so much anxiety over it is simply - She's manipulative. She hasn't sent me texts like that in a really long time, and I feel like she only sent them because I haven't been talking to her lately. She wanted to throw the ball in my court and see if I'd bounce it back so she could find out a little bit of what's going on in my life. Well I didn't give her much, so she tried to get more. I still didn't give her much, and thank goodness she stopped because knowing me, I probably would've given her too much. Enough to make me feel bad about myself. How the hell does she even have this affect on me? It's insane.
Anyway, the rest of day consisted of more customer service crap that as a manager, I really don't think I should have to do. That's why I have bankers and client service managers. Ugh. Wow, this was a real bitch fest. I guess it's the perfect crappy blog to go with the perfect crappy day.
I did not channel my energy well today, and I have to admit, I stopped trying about halfway through the day. Not a great idea, but I was done with it all. But my goal is to wake up tomorrow with a different outlook because it's a different and new day. The people in my life are great and I know they will be here to support me. My husband, as rough as a morning/day we had, is an amazing man and I know he will be there no matter what.
Oh, as an update, grandma's staying overnight at the hospital because her blood pressure is being weird. For the most part, she's okay. We'll find out more tomorrow. Prayers would be appeciated. :) Goodnight all!
Love,
Melonhead
