Wow, sorry for my absence the last few days! My computer has not been friendly, and I have been extremely busy.
Let's see...what's been going on?? Well, Friday I had an ultrasound done to check my follicles...and I had two wonderful 20mm follies ready to go! So, the nurse gave me a trigger shot (OUCH, this particular nurse I swear just likes to stab people) to stimulate ovulation, and the next day I went to Seattle to had an IUI (intrauterine insemination) done.
I won't go into too much detail about the IUI because J would probably kill me, but it definitely wasn't my favorite experience. Basically in the morning, J went in and did his thing, and then 90 minutes later I went and had my part done. Essentially, it's like doing a pap smear with the speculum and everything, then they insert a tiny catheter through your cervix into your uterus and inject the sperm directly in. It didn't really hurt so to speak, but it was definitely not comfortable. That's pretty much it. I probably worked myself up over it for nothing. So hopefully, especially with two good follicles and an IUI this time, we'll have some better chances!
On a sadder note, today was my first day back to work after a week long vacation. Fortunately, it was only a half day (I work this Saturday, so I was compensating for it) and I had an acupuncture appointment this afternoon. It was a slow day, I didn't have to help too many people and surprisingly didn't have much to catch up on since I worked on all of it before I left. Acupuncture was really good and really relaxing today. It was a light treatment, but again, really good.
We've spent a lot of time with Kelly and Ken the past couple of days, and it hasn't been too bad. We had dinner last night, and Kelly and I worked on a couple crafty things in my new happy room. :) It was nice and relaxing...We did see them tonight at my mother in law's house since J was getting his hair cut by Ken (and for some reason they had to do it at their mom's??), and I kind of felt like it was time to take some time away from them again. Haha. I guess I'm just not one of those people that can spend a ton of time with the same people over and over again. Here are a few things I've realized about myself the last few weeks:
- I'm a much better friend on a one-on-one level, I can't really be myself in large social settings
- I love my in-laws, but have realized that I'm very different than them
- I think I am most like my mother-in-law, but she has to play roles that inhibit her from being who she really is, so I'm not really sure
- I love love love tea
- I love the fall because it makes me love tea more
- I have 2 things in my life that many people don't have: A best friend that TRULY knows everything about me and doesn't judge me, and a husband that TRULY wants me to be happy and loves me for who I am. These sound simple, but they're very rare.
- I would be a really good mom.
- If I were to become a mom, I would be a fun mom.
- I need to find a different career path but don't know how to get there.
- I love to relax
- My side of the family is very sane ;)
- I can live with simple things
- I don't have to prove anything to anyone anymore
Anyway, I'm going to go relax now and possibly have a cup of tea with my husband. Oh, and possibly catch up on Dexter! Goodnight.
Love, Melonhead
Showing posts with label sola. Show all posts
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Monday, October 17, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Chicken & Dumplings
What a relaxing, lovely day with my husband and wife (yes, I have a wife too). J and I went to visit Sola (the wife) to help her with a couple things around the house, and of course just to visit. We made chicken & dumplings, which was the perfect thing to eat on a nice autumn day, and sat around watching the football game and Lion King with her beautiful daughter. Of course Sola and I reverted back to our old movie watching days and made fun of everything we could on Lion King. For example while they were singing "Can You Feel the Love Tonight," Sola asked "Do you think they were singing that in their heads....?" And when Scar took over Pride Rock, why did everything die including all the fish in the rivers? Were Mufasa and Simba magic lions? And you think that's bad...you should have heard us back in highschool while we watched Titanic over the phone. "Never let go Jackkk, never let go...." Oh, how I love Sola. She is always a breath of fresh air for me. It's just nice to get away from my small-town life sometimes.
I decided yesterday at some point that it was too much energy to completely ignore Jenn and Kelly. It's not in my nature to be a complete bitch ,and I think I'd just be playing into their games a little too much by letting them know they're getting to me. Ignoring them would've done that, I think. Jenn had texted me yesterday and I answered her, which inevitably led to a phone call that I didn't really want to answer, but did anyway. We didn't talk about much except Jack's 30th birthday party and when she was planning to have it, so nothing too interesting. Sometimes she can be pretty funny and pleasant, but unfortunately I have to have my guard up at all times so I can't ever really truly enjoy a conversation with her. I don't know if I'll ever be at peace with my sister-in-law, but I sure hope I can. Or at least I hope I can come to terms with her behavior and just not give a crap.
Jenn told me that Grandma is going home today, which is good news. Her BP was up today, but it's looking like she'll be fine as long as she follows up with a cardiologist. That's actually another annoying thing about Jenn - she seems to always know everything that's going on with everyone. Then she likes to call the rest of us to tell us that she knows what's going on. My mother-in-law hasn't called to tell us what's going on with grandma today, so I know she didn't do her normal rounds of calling everyone. Which means Jenn called her, which she does EVERYDAY. Literally, everyday. I know, I probably look way too much into these things, but I guess in my position, you just end up doing that. You wonder things like "why didn't anyone call me?" or "why am I always the last to find out?" Then you realize - aha! It's not that you're the last to find out, it's that you're patient, and Jenn is always probing everyone to be the first to find something out. It's kind of sad, really. Sometimes I wonder how my mother-in-law can stand to talk to her everyday, especially after knowing how she feels about her.
Okay, I digress. I think I've probably blogged enough about my trials and tribulations with my sister-in-laws, and I really need to stop. But again, this is my blog to relieve stress and I think it's definitely helping. I haven't blown up at anyone yet. ;)
I have the whole next week off, yay! J and I are going to just relax and do some things around the house, and go to a couple things we never get to do. Like go to Pike Place Market, blow glass, and maybe go to a museum. (I'm trying to give the guy a little taste of culture...) Tomorrow, I'm getting a massage and will see the chiropractor, and so will J. Tuesday, I have another acupuncture appointment. Woop woop! I'm hoping to find some good energy this week and truly de-stress.
Love,
Melonhead
I decided yesterday at some point that it was too much energy to completely ignore Jenn and Kelly. It's not in my nature to be a complete bitch ,and I think I'd just be playing into their games a little too much by letting them know they're getting to me. Ignoring them would've done that, I think. Jenn had texted me yesterday and I answered her, which inevitably led to a phone call that I didn't really want to answer, but did anyway. We didn't talk about much except Jack's 30th birthday party and when she was planning to have it, so nothing too interesting. Sometimes she can be pretty funny and pleasant, but unfortunately I have to have my guard up at all times so I can't ever really truly enjoy a conversation with her. I don't know if I'll ever be at peace with my sister-in-law, but I sure hope I can. Or at least I hope I can come to terms with her behavior and just not give a crap.
Jenn told me that Grandma is going home today, which is good news. Her BP was up today, but it's looking like she'll be fine as long as she follows up with a cardiologist. That's actually another annoying thing about Jenn - she seems to always know everything that's going on with everyone. Then she likes to call the rest of us to tell us that she knows what's going on. My mother-in-law hasn't called to tell us what's going on with grandma today, so I know she didn't do her normal rounds of calling everyone. Which means Jenn called her, which she does EVERYDAY. Literally, everyday. I know, I probably look way too much into these things, but I guess in my position, you just end up doing that. You wonder things like "why didn't anyone call me?" or "why am I always the last to find out?" Then you realize - aha! It's not that you're the last to find out, it's that you're patient, and Jenn is always probing everyone to be the first to find something out. It's kind of sad, really. Sometimes I wonder how my mother-in-law can stand to talk to her everyday, especially after knowing how she feels about her.
Okay, I digress. I think I've probably blogged enough about my trials and tribulations with my sister-in-laws, and I really need to stop. But again, this is my blog to relieve stress and I think it's definitely helping. I haven't blown up at anyone yet. ;)
I have the whole next week off, yay! J and I are going to just relax and do some things around the house, and go to a couple things we never get to do. Like go to Pike Place Market, blow glass, and maybe go to a museum. (I'm trying to give the guy a little taste of culture...) Tomorrow, I'm getting a massage and will see the chiropractor, and so will J. Tuesday, I have another acupuncture appointment. Woop woop! I'm hoping to find some good energy this week and truly de-stress.
Love,
Melonhead
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Sisters
I've always wanted a sister. Don't get me wrong, I love my two younger brothers. They are smart, funny, and awesome, but I'm a girl and I've always wanted a sister to share clothes and secrets with. Now I know sister-in-laws are different, but when I got married I was pretty stoked that I'd be gaining 2 sisters. Unfortunately for me, it's not really what I expected and actually has turned out to be quite the opposite. I love my sister-in-laws dearly, but tend to find myself feeling like the 3rd wheel a little too often. J is the middle of three brothers, the oldest being Jack and the youngest being Ken. (not real names of course!) Jack is married to Jenn, and Ken has been dating Kelly seriously for about 4 years now. (I call her my sister-in-law because she pretty much is and it's easier) All three brothers and their dad are firefighters, and hubby is the only one that works in a different department and a different shift. Naturally because of schedule conflicts, J and I get left out of a lot of dinners, events, yada yada. It's okay really, we're used to it by now and we get a chance to enjoy our quality alone time together. But, as you can probably imagine, there are a lot of times where I feel like we're the odd couple out. Like this weekend, where Jack, Jenn, Kelly and Ken went to Leavenworth without inviting us.
There's a much longer backstory here, but the short of it is: Jenn and I have never had an easy relationship. We're just very different. She likes to be competitive - I don't really care either way. She loves to be surrounded by people - I enjoy my time alone. She likes to give her strong opinions - I try to be tactful and not offend people. She's also incredibly moody, and I never know which version I'm going to get. She's also had this possessive nature and sense of entitlement over my husband's family because she was the first "girlfriend" to come along, and it's really quite annoying. We've had some great times and she can be really fun, really sweet, and caring, and I know she would be there for me in a heartbeat. It's just never been easy. Kelly and I, on the otherhand have always had an easy relationship. She's 7 years younger than me, and actually lived with us for a little bit. She's pretty easy-going, has the same sense of humor as me, and is overall very sweet. We've had some good times just watching movies and drinking coffee, and playing video games with our boys. When Ken started on the same shift as Jack and his dad, Jenn and Kelly started spending a lot more time together, which makes sense. I'm sure I would too. Naturally, I constantly feel left out and a little bit jealous of their time together. I also feel like Kelly isn't the same, and in some ways, is starting to act like Jenn a bit. It makes me sad, but I figure I really should just suck it up and move forward. But when they decided to leave us out of their little road trip to Leavenworth this weekend, I just about had a mental breakdown about this entirely f'ed up situation. Neither of us were working yesterday, why wouldn't they have bothered to even just invite us? I'm sure the excuse was "well we didn't think you guys would come" but how would you know if you don't bother to ask? I guess the way I see it is, we're family, regardless of whatever you think we're going to say, an invite should always be given. No, we're not always going to want to come to every trip, every event, and every party. We are married afterall, and enjoy our time alone. I also work Monday-Friday 9-5pm, so I don't have all the time in the world. But, you should always ask. I know I would. Especially for a little road trip!
I feel like I'm being a big baby, but I guess this whole thing really hurt me. I think it's been hurting me for a long, long time. It's constant and I can't seem to make it go away. I'm hoping that writing about it will help. J and I argued about it last night. He just doesn't seem to get why I can't just let it go and why it bothers me so much. I often wonder how he doesn't feel left out when his two brothers and dad are constantly doing things without him, but he is a dude afterall. Things like that don't affect men like they do women. Sigh.
I feel really ashamed about this, but I basically told J that I wanted to try to have very little contact with his family for awhile. I guess I didn't say earlier, but we live in a very VERY small town. J grew up here, and my in-laws all live at the most 7 minutes away. This can be convenient at times, but for the most part I feel like I can't get away. So I need some space. J has graciously agreed to also minimize his contact with his family (someone will call him at least once a day) to help me come back to sanity. But unfortunately, we've tried this before but there's always a birthday or some big event where we eventually end up having to see them. His dad's birthday is this weekend, and I don't want to be a bitch and not show up. But it just goes to show that I will never be able to get away from the madness. It's such a huge stress in my life, and I can't seem to get away from it. But again, I'm hoping that writing about it will ease how heavy it is on my heart. We'll see!
Now, I know this has been insanely long, but since I'm on the topic of sisters - I am extremely grateful for my best friend, Sola. I've known her since 1st grade, and she pretty was like a sister growing up. And we only lived 2 minutes away from eachother! We went to a Boyz II Men concert last night and they were AMAZING. We were such huge fans when we were in highschool, but we never got to see them in concert! We had such a good time, and it's always a breath of fresh air when we get together. We live about an hour and a half away from eachother, so it can be hard to get together sometimes, but it's always worth it. To this day, she's still the only person that knows everything about me and the only person that I know for a fact would never judge me. I know this because she never has. I love her!
There's a much longer backstory here, but the short of it is: Jenn and I have never had an easy relationship. We're just very different. She likes to be competitive - I don't really care either way. She loves to be surrounded by people - I enjoy my time alone. She likes to give her strong opinions - I try to be tactful and not offend people. She's also incredibly moody, and I never know which version I'm going to get. She's also had this possessive nature and sense of entitlement over my husband's family because she was the first "girlfriend" to come along, and it's really quite annoying. We've had some great times and she can be really fun, really sweet, and caring, and I know she would be there for me in a heartbeat. It's just never been easy. Kelly and I, on the otherhand have always had an easy relationship. She's 7 years younger than me, and actually lived with us for a little bit. She's pretty easy-going, has the same sense of humor as me, and is overall very sweet. We've had some good times just watching movies and drinking coffee, and playing video games with our boys. When Ken started on the same shift as Jack and his dad, Jenn and Kelly started spending a lot more time together, which makes sense. I'm sure I would too. Naturally, I constantly feel left out and a little bit jealous of their time together. I also feel like Kelly isn't the same, and in some ways, is starting to act like Jenn a bit. It makes me sad, but I figure I really should just suck it up and move forward. But when they decided to leave us out of their little road trip to Leavenworth this weekend, I just about had a mental breakdown about this entirely f'ed up situation. Neither of us were working yesterday, why wouldn't they have bothered to even just invite us? I'm sure the excuse was "well we didn't think you guys would come" but how would you know if you don't bother to ask? I guess the way I see it is, we're family, regardless of whatever you think we're going to say, an invite should always be given. No, we're not always going to want to come to every trip, every event, and every party. We are married afterall, and enjoy our time alone. I also work Monday-Friday 9-5pm, so I don't have all the time in the world. But, you should always ask. I know I would. Especially for a little road trip!
I feel like I'm being a big baby, but I guess this whole thing really hurt me. I think it's been hurting me for a long, long time. It's constant and I can't seem to make it go away. I'm hoping that writing about it will help. J and I argued about it last night. He just doesn't seem to get why I can't just let it go and why it bothers me so much. I often wonder how he doesn't feel left out when his two brothers and dad are constantly doing things without him, but he is a dude afterall. Things like that don't affect men like they do women. Sigh.
I feel really ashamed about this, but I basically told J that I wanted to try to have very little contact with his family for awhile. I guess I didn't say earlier, but we live in a very VERY small town. J grew up here, and my in-laws all live at the most 7 minutes away. This can be convenient at times, but for the most part I feel like I can't get away. So I need some space. J has graciously agreed to also minimize his contact with his family (someone will call him at least once a day) to help me come back to sanity. But unfortunately, we've tried this before but there's always a birthday or some big event where we eventually end up having to see them. His dad's birthday is this weekend, and I don't want to be a bitch and not show up. But it just goes to show that I will never be able to get away from the madness. It's such a huge stress in my life, and I can't seem to get away from it. But again, I'm hoping that writing about it will ease how heavy it is on my heart. We'll see!
Now, I know this has been insanely long, but since I'm on the topic of sisters - I am extremely grateful for my best friend, Sola. I've known her since 1st grade, and she pretty was like a sister growing up. And we only lived 2 minutes away from eachother! We went to a Boyz II Men concert last night and they were AMAZING. We were such huge fans when we were in highschool, but we never got to see them in concert! We had such a good time, and it's always a breath of fresh air when we get together. We live about an hour and a half away from eachother, so it can be hard to get together sometimes, but it's always worth it. To this day, she's still the only person that knows everything about me and the only person that I know for a fact would never judge me. I know this because she never has. I love her!
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