Woes of the ugly stepchild

Well, of course my in-laws did it again. I have to remember that their birthdays and things of the sort aren't about me, but I am so tired of always being the last to know about events, dinners, etc or being completely forgotten about! I am trying so hard to be stress-free, and I really shouldn't let small things like being told about a dinner party 4 hours before it happens get to me....but they do. I take things really personally, and I can't help it. That's just who I am. I know that they're scatter-brained and things like that are put together last second, but it seems like everyone else knew about it except J and I. Would you like to know how I found out about my brother-in-law's birthday party?

Well Jenn and I had been recently talking about taking pictures of her and her family this Saturday, but up until yesterday, I still hadn't her from her about it. So I texted her with "Hey, have you talked to Jack about pictures Saturday? J's co-worker was wondering if I could come to a mary kay party that morning, and I told her I had to talk to you first since I know you wanted to take pics" She texts me back with "We don't have to take pictures. I haven't been able to talk to him about it." HOW HAVE YOU NOT BEEN ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS? Come on, really? If it's that hard to communicate with your husband, you should not be in that relationship. And I could just smell guilt trip coming from that text like it stunk like crap. I texted her back with "Really? I don't mind taking pictures. Just let me know what Jack says, I'll let J's coworker know by tomorrow afternoonish. So of course, I never heard from her. I let it go, I decided to give up that Saturday morning and not go to J's co-worker's thing, and just waited to see what Jenn said. I ended up caving in this morning with a text saying "Hey, I don't have to do the mary kay thing anymore, so if you want to take pictures we can." And she replies "Okay, sounds good, I'll talk to him tonight. And I'll see you tonight anyway."

What??

I texted back "You mean you'll call me tonight? Am I missing something?"

"We're having dinner at (insert mother in law's name here, we'll call her Mary) for Jack's birthday, I'll call you later."

So there. That was the first time I heard about it. I asked J if he knew anything about it, and all he knew was that his mom said to him yesterday "Oh, you can't go to the party tomorrow cause you're working huh?" assuming of course he already knew about it. He didn't, but he played it off like he did, which I don't understand. He didn't bother to tell me because he thought I already knew about it. Well I didn't!

Mary texts me today saying "Hey Melonhead! Will we see you today after work ?"

I text back with "I just found out about dinner, I'll be late."

Mary: "Oh! I thought I sent you a text yesterday but I guess I didn't hit send....forgive me please??"

Me: "It's okay. I just get frustrated because I feel like the ugly stepchild that is always the last to know everything or gets completely forgotten about. I have an appt at 430, will be there after."

Mary: "We'll see you then and even if you feel that way it's not true."

That was the end of that. Why do I get my feels hurt so easily? Am I stupid and irrational? Good thing I have an acupuncture appointment today!

Some things that make me feel more relaxed and some things that make me happy when it comes to fall....

Pumpkins!

Last rose of the year

Fallen leaves

Crochet