I had a dream last night that my sister in laws were being cliquey as usual. We were at a family get-together, and it was actually pretty normal. And really, it wasn't anything special, they were just hovering in a room together, away from me, looking at something on the computer. Pretty nominal and stupid. But when I woke up, I was really sad about it. I guess they're bothering me more than usual, and even something that trivial was making me upset. Usually the feelings I have during a dream tend to fade away as I wake up, but this one didn't go away for awhile. I would assume that's probably because that's how they always make me feel, I'm just not always quite as vulnerable to it. But I feel better now, now that I've woken up 2 hours earlier than I wanted to and the dream has, for the most part, faded away and the sting isn't quite as prominent.
I guess I just didn't have to feel this way and I wish I wasn't so jealous. It sucks.
I hope you can get to a point with Jenn where she stops bothering you. I hate how much she gets to you. I don't fault you for it at all- I think most everyone in your situation would feel the same way- I just hope you can someday become at peace with it. And if that doesn't happen- I hope some day we live by each other so we can be the sisters we were meant to be :)
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We don't have to live by eachother to be the sisters we were meant to be, but I know what you mean!! :) Days of making fun of movies, ice cream, and naps.... ;)
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